Week Two of brokennesssss

I'm not so sure that brokenness is a word, but I feel that it should be. It seems to fit the ability to describe a situation/feeling in a simplistic straightforward moderately amusing way. (hence the name of this post) One of long time friends and confidants mentioned that in my copious free time I should blog more... admittedly, though I thought it was a good idea, I was not so sure that ANYONE actually read this. However, to my pleasant suprise, there is at least one random reader- so blog I shall :)

The theme of the week is bi-polar disorder. Not the medically treated kind, nor the kind typically diagnosed by professionals, but the kind that settles in the dark recesses of your iris when type-A people are thrown to a screeching halt and wonder where all the noise is from their usually frenetic life. That kind of bi-polar disorder. The kind that seeps emotion into your daily tasks where emotion had previously been void. For example, the joy at being able to clumsily carry boiling pasta across the kitchen while on crutches, and conversely the intense despair at having to spend 10 fucking minutes balancing boiling pasta, while chaotically dodging cats and dogs while on crutches. That kind of bi-polar disorder.

Admittedly, I am in a fairly decent "space" at this particular moment, so this post doesn't have the wrist-slicing depressed thoughts it might have had week one of brokenness :) I've been able to keep amazingly busy and have had time (forced time) to sit down and figure out some more technical aspects to my website that I haven't been able to as of yet. Lame, yes, but I am still pretty excited that I was able to figure out the html coding to create PDF files and have my price lists link to my website (even open in new window-thanks to Sarah and Scotty) AND.. oh yes.. there's more... I have actually figured out how to add music to my website. Take that 6 yr old programmers.

I know it's all stuff that is pretty basic, but that's not the point. The point is, as my life in many aspects has come to a screeching halt, I figured why not take the forced vacation and increase my working knowledge level? So that is kinda my mantra right now. I may not be able to ride, walk, drive, work, go to shows, jump around with my camera... but at least I can read and play on my computer. Yay me.