It's very late and I should be sleeping. Though, I have found that I am not very good at going to bed at any semblance of a reasonable hour, so I really don't know why I am continually suprised by this. Anyway, things have been coming full circle out in crazy Salt Lake City. I'm really excited and my brain seems to be racing faster and in more directions than I thought possible. I'm doing a much needed over-haul slash re-vamping of my photography company. Yes, it's true. I'm actually re-focusing & simplifying to shooting primarily weddings and portraits (with fine art of course on the side). More importantly I am starting to make some contacts and garner new skills that I am barely able to contain my excitement about.
For example, I will be shooting a wedding catering company's new brochures and will be their referral photographer... word of mouth will always out weigh any other type of positive advertisement. Plus, they did 80 weddings last year- which is more than I can shoot by myself anyway. Oh darn, I will have to hire another photographer (down the road).
I also decided to take a couple classes at Salt Lake Community College for graphics :) Which means I may even be able to make my own damn flyers. Anyone who knows me knows how horribly challenged I can be with graphics stuff. I have to say, an ass load of debt for an under grad degree that I will most likely NEEEEVVVVVEEEEER use later, I am more excited about the 2 classes I'm currently enrolled in than anything I have taken in the past.
You know, over all things have just started really picking up momentum. It was as if I finally decided mentally that it was possible, that I was good enough, that I was ready.. and all of a sudden I looked around to realize that many of the resources I needed were already there. What has become increasingly poignant to me lately has been how much your mindest affects everything... I know this is cliche, but I realyl believe that NO ONE other than yourself will even stop you from succeeding- and yet, I continue to undercut my own efforts by thinking maybe I wasn't ready.. blah blah blah. For example, I was talking to someone that I heard some modeling, so I'm all baddadd photographer asking what he's done... then he says he's been primarily in Milan, Paris... all the places that are the real deal and big time. It's amazing, in an instant I went from being the powerful one to being ocmpletely intimidated wishing I hadn't given him my business card becauze I was embaressed for him to see my website before I update it. As the realization hit me, that nothing had changed other than my perception of the situation, I began to think, "ok.. stop it. you're talented, but you both come from different backgrounds.... he may or ay not like your work... does it really matter??"
I guess on some level I feel like we all do that in our lives... No one really wants to feel like whatever they are passionate about is horrible, but at the same time I think we all need to refocus and look internally for belief in our own work. There is power and magic in confidence that sometimes is easy to forget when we get sucked into relying on external praise.
Ok Ok.. . I know this is way to long of a blog to read anyway.. so I will stop. I just wanted to share some of my more fun moments and let you all know (and by you all, I mean the one or two people that might actually be reading this... heh heh heh) that updates are coming and to keep an eye out on up and coming photographers :)
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